Chronology of a Dark Mind

Episode
Prologue

Darkness,
Darkness,

Are you afraid of dark,
Can you sleep in a closed room with lights off,
Can you feel the presence of some unwanted entity in your room

Can you feel it whispering in your ears...

You don't remember but you remember something happened

Those words they will hunt you for eternity...

No no no

I'm not talking about you

Or someone you know

It did happen with me..

I can still feel her

Yes the entity was a she

No I didn't see her I don't remember what happened that night,
But i remember the words..
Words so powerful,
So fierce,
It will haunt you for eternity if you don't understand it..
It haunted me ,
Took me 10 long years
To understand the meaning of those words,
But after I understood the words ..
I felt
I can't describe what I felt.
But I felt something good..
Something that all mortals look for their entire life but they just die by getting lost in the Abyss of a Mirage of Serenity.

I felt peace..
I felt free...
I felt serenity..

I thought it was over ..
Couldn't sleep for 10 damn years ..
Couldn't stand the darkness..
Life I lost the meaning of it..
The words I remember was nothing but a simple question ..
"Are you free??"

Freedom that was haunting me,

I knew I had it..
But I was wrong..
More I explored more I realised that to obtain security not only me but all of us has surrendered their freedom.
But ultimately we all are slaves..
Slaves of a Master
Not one but few
Nothing changed from Dark Ages
Just the type of slavery
It's changed..
We all live in a Mirage of slavery..
We give up all our decision making senses
And hope that some one will fix our problems..

Yeah that's screwed up..
Yeah my mind got screwed up ..
My life got screwed up.

I overcame it..
By achieving the true meaning of 'Being Free'
But that's a long story
No no no
This is not a story this is my life.
But for you it's story..

So where was I...
Yes
I remember..
I understood the true meaning of 'Being Free'

Then I felt peace
I felt free
I felt serenity...

The haunting was over..
I can again sleep in the Darkness..
I can sleep in a Closed Room with Lights off...

But was it over...

"Hi !!!!!!!!!!!!"
A lady whispered ...
I remember it..
I can still feel her warm breath..
I can still feel her warm scent...

But I never saw it..
But I was in a closed room..
But I was alone..
But I was in a darkroom

And

I didn't do drugs or drink alcohol..
Neither I'm a psychopath nor a crazy one

But it did happen..

And my life was screwed again...

Chronology of a Dark Mind

Episode

Question...

Am I a psychopath? Am I ?
Am I a killer ? Am I?
They all think about these naughty stuffs about me.
They
Yeah they
The civilians.
The poor souls .
Those always blame others for their very own mistakes.
Those good for nothing bastards.
Or shall I refer them as retards mentally retards.
LoL .
Laughing out Loud that's the meaning of LoL.
But these young retards don't even know the meaning of it.
Retards . shame 
Shameless generation.
Principle less generation.
Goal less generation .
What to do with them?
How to teach them values?
No.
There is no need to teach them.
Then what leave them like this???
No.
Let us say .
They should learn themselves.
Learn what?
Values. Not only value how to nourish the blessing of life.
But only the one who will survive will learn to nourish the blessing of life.

Criminal

Criminal.

Episode 1

I , who am I? What am I? Am I a normal guy? Or I'm just exceptional? Why I have no guilt? Why I'm not guilty ? Why?

Questions questions too many questions I ask myself regularly... I repeat them  ..... I constantly ask them ... To whom?

To me . I ask these questions to me . I ask them to myself . I try to answer them. But . I don't have the answers for them.

Then , why?

Why I ask them to myself?

Why I'm looking for answers?

Why?

Why ... This term 'Why' is a very powerful word. One 'Why' can stop a conversation, it has the power to start a conflict and most devastating power of it is that it has the power to take life from a healthy well nourished relationship.

Did I did something that take away life from relationship?

I was involved in a relationship.... Well i don't know..

What I've done? What?

Why?

Why I repeat this question?

That's the million dollar question.
I don't know the answer.Maybe its because of guilt. Guilt . That's a very dangerous thing in this universe. Guilt it has a power to put some one on his knees to cry, to beg, even though the strongest can't survive guilt.

What guilt I don't know ?

What am I doing here ?

Why?
Again why?
But why !